Archive for December, 2013
Yawnnnnnnnn awake again at 2:00 a.m.
Might as well write down some of the thoughts pervading my brain so they can leave and I can go back to sleep.
Thinking about this time of year and the mixed bag of emotions that surface relentlessly, I can’t help but believe that getting old ain’t for sissies! In younger days I was happy and joyous, even, excited! Just when, did excitement get re-placed with, UGH? For the most part days are filled with “I need to do this, I need to do that”. Its those damn expectations that can be so debilitating! Boxing gloves are not for the opponent they are for beating one’s self up! kaaaa-pow.
I often wonder, what, IS it that compels a person to do anything. Of course, its complicated. I’d like to cut myself some slack, be kind to the me that can’t do it all.
But there is that ferocious TO DO list. And, my expectations. I remind myself, if you don’t have expectations you can’t be disappointed. You can’t be reactionary, you CAN live in the moment.
SO, I’m just, taking it one day at a time, putting one foot in front of the other.
I went into the local pharmacy/souvenir shop yesterday which is across the street from the post office which I have attended three days in a row, but I digress, so at the drug store, I was the only person in there, I needed a box of Christmas cards and I found myself looking at doo dads that would be fun gifts and feeling so pleased that I had the place to myself and thinking, how nice, there is no mall in town. NO MALL. There I was, in this tiny little pharmacy/souvenir shop, the only shopper and the clerk was so pleasant and happy and not stressed and quite out of the glue, oozed and eased up a sense of, dare I say, appreciation? A realization that I felt grateful for this place I live in now (Ojai) and for the few bucks I had in my pocket and for the happy, friendly, not stressed out clerk and for the short distance I had to walk back to my vehicle and for the hordes of broke, angry shoppers I don’t have to face. Merry Christmas indeed.
This altered Barbie ornament is available at OVM. She is a unique one of a kind piece.
Her title is Aqua Dream because she is dreamy in my favorite color: aqua. Seriously, her surface is beautiful painted with acrylics and copper leafed and sanded and finished with a strong varnish.
Also available at the museum: Snowflake
Painted with acrylics and gold leafed and sanded and textured, she would look lovely on any Christmas tree! or hanging as a decorative work of art from a hook.
Also at the museum: Carnival of colors! this whimsical mixed media figure is paper mached, painted with acrylics and textured. She also has some puffy yarn about her. There is a wire loop at the back for hanging.
Available at OVA gallery a sweet angel with super pretty pastel yarn for hair :D:
A few more ornaments in the works….