Posts Tagged ‘painting’

Shame

Wednesday, April 1st, 2015

shame

“Shame”

I turned this face red to illustrate the idea of being ashamed, or full of shame. The few times in my own life when I have felt shame, in my youth, gladly saying, I could feel my face turn hot and blush. Something I had no control over, because blushing is an automatic reaction. Like crying, while there is an ability to hold back, emotions will prevail and reveal. Revealing the depth of that sensation stemming from the reality of one’s feelings which is something intangible unless one is a pyschopath. I think shame is different than embarrassment although they are both from the same family. There have been some occassions in my life where I have witnessed shaming and find it horrifying and more than that, horrifying that I did nothing. I’m more ashamed of doing nothing or saying nothing than being the recipient of shame, because ultimately, the recipient of shame has less culpability than the person who shamed them, or the person who stood by. There is some degree of acquiesence, for the person who is young and helpless under the control of adults, but as an adult, given a circumstance, I could not stand idly by. There is a rage in me that will exude. Exude for the times I have been shamed and for the times I shouldn’t have been and for the times others have been cruely treated and their voicelessness. In humiliation. Shameful.

Breath

Friday, May 2nd, 2014
Oil on canvas

Oil on canvas

I have not been very productive lately, sick with a kidney infection, no fun!

Mr. Bird Thought, “She must be Ruffling Her Feathers”

Thursday, March 6th, 2014

feathers

oil on canvas
prints available, see etsy

heart art

Monday, January 27th, 2014

heart malika

these spray paints help get a background color on fast!
spray paint

confetti

Tuesday, January 14th, 2014

fetti

oil on canvas

cotton candy tree

Friday, June 21st, 2013

cotton candy tree

oil on canvas

Allowing my imagination to go where it will…

I recently experienced a rejection which is par for the course for any serious artist, and I allowed myself a bit of pouting time and then done. Also coincidental, this email message: “Life will give you whatever experience is most helpful for the evolution of your consciousness. How do you know this is the experience you need? Because this is the experience you are having at this moment.’ **Eckhart Tolle

Thinking out loud

Friday, April 5th, 2013

I felt oddly impacted by the death of Roger Ebert for whom I have been a long time fan. I follow him on twitter and his keen mind has illuminated many a different topic for me. But, mostly, I remember him from back in the days of “Siskel and Ebert” a show I watched every week. Roger was such a commanding wit. Today, most often, if I want to read a movie review I first go to Ebert’s website. I will miss his reviews of current movies and saddened by his loss.

Sometimes I feel such angst and jealousy by the accomplishments of other artists that I want to dive my head into the ground and stay there. Still, while I can understand angst, I despise jealousy/envy and mostly keep the green monsters beneath the bed where they belong. At the same time, I am so grateful for the brilliance and success of the truly talented. How banal life would be without those to admire and aspire to. Before the internet, one had to buy books or go to galleries and museums to see the work of others and now the myriad of images and artists at one’s fingertips is overwhelming and maybe that is where some of the angst comes from, there are so many accomplished artists to be jealous of, I mean admire.

Some art is on such a high plain I can not even be jealous of it. I can only internalize the impact so as to take the miracle of it with me. The work of Francis Bacon does this to me. Apparently he was quite a scoundrel and despicable as a human being but I don’t care and I don’t need to know it and knowing it does not change my opinion of the work. The work stands on it its own like disembodied legs. How grand it would be to stand in the studio where he worked and marvel at the complete irreverence for the environment while the man vehicle was sprouting master pieces from amidst the chaos. Here is a great little video:

I’m inspired by the method of using damaged photographs and images as source material for portraits and ideas. I can see myself doing the same kind of thing using damaged printed material (because I have a hard time damaging an actual photograph even if its not a friend or family member). Of course, even if I were to employ the exact same methods used by Bacon or any other artist, the work would still turn out like my own, there is no getting away from one’s self. So, using a method developed by another artist is copying but its not copying the art itself. Its a learning device.

I’ll be leaving for my parents house in the morning so I must get some painting time in. NOw.

I’ve sketched so many tree fems that I just about have a forest!

Hair cut

Tuesday, November 20th, 2012

Oil on canvas

I was thinking of Rapunzel when I started this, but she just does not seem like a Rapunzel, so I gave her a pair of scissors and I’m calling it Hair Cut~~

The tones in her face remind me a bit of Dave Cooper’s work which I love. Not familiar with Dave Cooper? here is a link, though it was hard to find a gallery with several works showing:
http://www.booooooom.com/2010/01/12/artist-dave-cooper/

Also found this animated cartoon with his images which is a delightfully twisted, contorted, bubbly ride. The bouncy character animation is just as I might imagine and the raunchy romp in jello at the end is fitting!



Lots to do today.

Jury

Friday, October 5th, 2012

My most recent painting is about a dream I had.

Quagmire

Saturday, September 22nd, 2012

quagmire

oil on canvas.

I have no explanation for this piece, it was very intuitive with a life of its own, I was just a conduit, really